Better Living Through Science

Never go off birth control.

Real periods suck.

I had forgotten that.

Bloating

Two nights ago I cried for three hours and yesterday I radiated heat with my irrational rage.  Mood swings in ultimate full effect.

Is this my first post BC PMS or something else? I would hypothetically get my period on Monday.   I am very bloated and my back hurts.

I am trying not to get my hopes up....but I can't stop thinking about it.

I'm going to give in and take a pregnancy test this evening when I get home.

Can't help myself.

The First Time

My libido is indeed back (yay!) and last night I was able to put it to use for the first time in my post-BC life.

Hubs and I were finally done with days of collapsing directly into bed, being too tired from moving to a 4th floor walk up in late August in NYC. 

It was a mind-switch from my whole life of not wanting to be pregs, to hoping we are a crazy anomaly and get a hole-in-one on this one.

Hubs asks me this morning: are you pregnant yet? and I brush it off like that would be absurd.  But I hadn't been able to stop myself from wondering that all night, even though I know it's really REALLY REEEEAAAAALLLLLLY unlikely.

giddy.

Otherwise, I am feeling the lack of birth control in that I am a bit more emotional than usual.  Feeling anxiety, crying a bit unexpectedly.

I also feel things in my gut working in ways that I haven't felt in years. I'm guessing that it's my ovaries.

Onwards!